A peek into darkness
Tears rolls down from eyes like you prick a big balloon with the smallest needle but something inside don’t want to let it out, abdomen muscles squeeze, feels like a hole being put in the chest, a sensation runs through the veins as if it's turning dry, can’t even feel the strength to stand on my two feet; all of this while trying to compose myself not to break the promise once made that I won’t cry.. I want to burst at top of my voice but I don’t.. Don’t know what is keeping me alive wishing each single day to get struck by a lightning to end this merciless pain once and for all.. I can’t kill myself, that is coward and selfish. I am not that brave either way I can’t kill myself. Yes, I have changed a lot in past few years. I have learnt to block my emotions and be reasonable. I didn’t wanted to but it happened naturally. I guess when you can’t let your emotions out that is natural. I tried to express my feelings to the most closest person by blood or otherwise I have ever fel...